Ashley. 21. Worcester, Ma. Keene, NH.
I’m really sad tonight and I don’t know why. I should be angry, but I can feel the water swelling up behind my eyes and the sinking feeling in my chest. I just want to be over this. I don’t understand why I still get sad at times…
it’s been almost a month since we broke up, and I’ve found myself missing you and wishing you’d try and contact me. but tonight I found out that when you made out with that girl (the third time you cheated on me) it was all
your doing. she knew you had a girlfriend but you were the one who convinced her that it was okay. honestly, I’m so happy we broke up. I’m sad that I wasted two years on someone that claimed they loved me, but never truly did. I’m angry at myself that I didn’t end
things sooner. but I’m glad that I get to grow from this situation and that I learned all of the things I should never put up with in a relationship. I want absolutely nothing to do with you. I’m over it all and I’m moving on to better things. goodbye.
I hate that I still want you back sometimes. I’ve realized that after two years you never really loved me, because if you had, none of the things that drove us apart would have happened. I realized we’re not good together and that I deserve better. but today, I’m lying in bed, too sad to get up, and I want you back. I miss all of the comforts of you, and right now I could really use your arms wrapped around me.
I wonder what you’re doing
and if you ever think of me.
Do you still wear the shirts I bought you,
or sleep with my blanket?
Or is the thought of being wrapped
in me too hard?
Or does it not even
phase you at all…
how do you even attempt to move on from someone who was such a major part of your life for the last three years?
Dan Howell (via phanjam)
m.k. (via praises)
I think I can physically feel my heart breaking